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The jacket still fits... But there's no letter on it. |
By
Kevin Hunsperger
@kevinhunsperger & @my123cents on Twitter
I am not now, nor was I ever an athlete. I played one failed season of little league more than 30 years ago and a few seasons of soccer, both indoor and outdoor. Beyond that, the only other athletic competition I was ever involved in was cross country and track in high school
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The JV letter |
I wasn't great at either, but it was something I did to be social and to kinda stay in shape. I also knew doing it would be my only way of earning a varsity letter in high school. This was important to me, why I don't know. For Christmas during my sophomore year, my parents bought me a Letterman's jacket. I remember how cool I felt wearing it, with my last name embroidered across the front. I had already earned my JV "letter" the 91 that went on the sleeve to correspond with the year I was set to graduate.
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Letterless with the Dr. Boyle Pic from an article about my Eagle Scout project at the school |
Despite not being very good at running, I was told if I stayed with it, I would eventually earn that big white N to proudly display on my scrawny chest. So I continued to lace up and finish at the back of the pack meet after meet, year after year. But I knew that persistence would eventually pay off.
Somewhere along the way I took my eye off that prize. My senior year I joined three new clubs: Key Club, the yearbook staff, and the drama club. Because the fall production was going on at the same time as cross country, I would sometimes skip practice to attend rehearsals. I was also working at the time, which didn't help with my time management skills. I even missed a couple of cross country meets.
But on Fall Sports Awards night I sat there eagerly waiting for my name to be called and handed that varsity letter. After all, I was a senior and I had earned it, right? Wrong. My name didn't get called. I was disappointed and it took me a long time to accept the fact that it was MY fault I didn't get that letter. I tried playing the blame game, but I'm the one who made the choice to go to different activities and skip cross country. I got too confident I'd get the letter.
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The letter I earned for Key Club |
Right before graduation, at the spring awards night, I did receive a letter. It was for the work I'd done in Key Club, a group devoted to community service. I felt somewhat satisfied with that big blue N, but the athletic letters were white. The blue ones were also awarded to female athletes. It's for that reason I never had it attached to my jacket. It sits in a box of mementos, now nearly a quarter of a century old. My jacket still hangs in my closet, tucked behind other coats and sweatshirts. When I see it, I think back to how I slacked off and didn't get the reward at the end.
That's what motivated me to write this. It's another reminder to finish what you start. I regret not seeing my senior season all the way through. Now it's more about just not getting the letter. It's about letting myself and others down along the way. I don't regret joining the other activities though. I just wish I would have been wiser about the timing of everything, but at 17 we think we know everything. Hopefully my actions will be a lesson for my kids in the near future.